Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Weighing on my Mind
It's been a few years since I struggled with the severe body image issues, the restricting and the overexercising. It seemed like my issues with that just kind of went away... or at least I started focusing my attention on other destructive coping mechanisms instead. Since then I have avoided getting back into the gym and dieting because I know how addicting it feels for me. I have tried to not think about my weight and my physical health the past few years out of fear I would go back to that obsessive thinking. I feel like I am doing well enough in my recovery to start working on my physical health again. I will need to stay accountable to my friends, my family, the therapist and to you all to make sure I don't fall back into my old patterns. Maybe this will be an opportunity to finally be physically healthy for the sake of being healthy. I would also like it to be an opportunity for me to become more comfortable with myself and address those body image issues I have been trying to ignore the past few years.